Sure, give me a moment to paint on my smile!

   I have a million thoughts and emotions flowing through my head so forgive me if this rambles or doesn't make any sense.  I know usually I have issues with staying focused anyway and I blame bipolar, today it's a mix of all things emotional.
   For 25 years I had to hold in every emotion I felt so everything translated to anger.  Therefore, anger is my default emotion.  I'm having to relearn how to be happy.  I'm having to relearn how to not fake every emotion.  I'm trying my damnedest not to act anymore.  I had to do that for the majority of my life.  I don't want to pretend anymore.
   I think it's unfair to be angry at me for having emotions or for not faking my way through life.  If everyone wants that, I can do that again.  I can be the shell that I once was.  Why am I not good enough as is?  Is my question...

Totally NOT laboring this Labor Day Weekend...

   Last night I went to bed around 3 or 4AM... ok so it was this morning... same thing... Then as CW was going to work, I kinda laid in bed with Jasper's face on my face and decided to wake up.  I opened my eyes had a minor panic attack when I couldn't see shit... then remembered I wore my glasses last night.  I then looked at the time and realized how disgustingly early it was, but I was already awake.  I took pics of the custom beanies I made... screwed around on the internet for a while... called my mom... then decided I was going to paint... after some more screwing around, I did in fact paint.  

    I made 3 bookmarks but I fucked one up when I was cutting it and smashed it some how... so... that will be mine... the other two, those will be going up for sale on Etsy as soon as I post them.  :) 

   WHY? Did I go to bed so late?  Because I took a freaking 4 hour nap until 8:30PM yesterday... I asked CW to wake me up after 30 minutes... I just wanted a powernap.... IS THAT 30 MINUTES?  sigh... men.

   I BARELY washed my face like 20 minutes ago.  What a freaking amazing lazy day.  Normally, I'm doing shit, I have to be places, go somewhere... do something... not today... it was nice.  Hope you all are enjoying your labor day weekend... and not laboring.