When I'm writing, thoughts come to me. They fly in and out of my brain. Sometimes when I'm driving home or sitting there, they do the same thing to me and I try to catch them before I forget so I get them worded just right.
What I've come to understand after these last few years is that, I really and truly am blessed. I now know that everything that I had to suffer through and go through previously, all the hurt with the crap my cousin did to me. The crap I went/[am going] through with being mentally ill, being bullied for my appearance, every guy I ever dated who treated me poorly, just all the hurt I suffered in my life... for all of this, I am being blessed with the gift of a man who treats me like a queen. A man who makes me feel like I am such a catch. A man who makes me feel beautiful and intelligent and wonderful. A man who accepts all my flaky shit and doesn't make me feel like absolute crap for being a bipolar mess. A man who deals with my counting compulsion and the fact that I have to do things in a certain way or I feel like I'm going to vomit. A man who deals with my whining and doesn't make me feel like I'm whining. A man who never calls me names or says anything negative about me. He is my gift. My gift for all the bad that I've had to deal with.
CW and I are not perfect, we fight and we disagree but that's because we are only human. We are going to do these things, that doesn't mean that we are a bad couple, the fact is, CW is truly my other half. I love him more than I could ever explain with words or actions... I can try, but anything I say or do could never be enough to let him know how much I love him.
With all that being said, my husband and I had a wonderful day together. We started the day by having breakfast with my parents. They took us out so they could give us our gift it was paper of the monetary kind ($$$) :) and then we went out to get a boba tea (my fave) and pick up our replica of our wedding cake top. Which was adorable PLUS we did not have to eat year old cake. Then we went to my parents' house to take my dad a boba tea and hang out for a little while and then came home and relaxed and decided to go out to dinner at Azuma the sushi and teppan restaurant where CW proposed to me. It was also the place we went to for our one year anniversary back in 2009 and CW proposed there in 2011. So it has sentimental value. It's kinda "our" place. After stuffing our faces, we came home and had a piece of our cake and watched Wreck It Ralph which was cute and then we played COD: Black OPs II till we got tired then we turned on 30 Rock and fell asleeps. It was a busy day and a good one. I only had minor anxiety while we were getting boba. Oh and we ordered a clock that has a different bird sound every hour to celebrate our one year wedding anniversary the modern way as well. CW said he wanted something geeky and unique like me. I thought that would be pretty unique in our home since it wouldn't really fit in with anything and I thought I'd like the bird sounds.
Now, here's our wedding song for all of you to enjoy.