a quick update...

  I've been busy lately with trying to get back in the groove of working full time and trying to find a balance with a normal routine again.  I'm so tired lately!  I'm at work 46+ hours a week and I'm still trying to get used to it.  I guess after almost a year of crafting and having my own hours, it's going to take a while.
   Well, I haven't been much on the social network lately but I have been observing shall we say... Not just online, but in life.  Online I've noticed that people are really sensitive and it's almost as though they expect you to share the EXACT same opinion as them and if you don't... they unfriend, unfollow, un-whatever you. I remember the days when it was actually okay to say something that was of differing opinion of someone else and it was ACCEPTED!  O_O  yes... those days did exist at one point in time.
  On another note, I've found that waking up early and watching the news every day does absolutely nothing for my paranoia.  It just makes me sad.
   I'm also closing down my website.  I don't keep up with it and I don't want to pay for it.  Besides, my blog and etsy are really my means of communication now anyway.  I've been thinking about doing it for about a year now and I'm going to do it.  I need new business cards anyway.  :)

Dear Sleep, I miss you

   I've been really tired lately, like really tired.  I can't sleep at night and even when I'm REALLY tired, like falling asleep standing up- kind of tired, when it comes to the going to bed part, my mind wakes up and is like "HEY!  Do you know all the shit you could be doing right now?"  So then I'm mentally writing all this shit in my head and my brain just will not turn the fuck off and then the next thing I know, it's 3 hours later and I am STILL awake.

   I never really liked sleeping because I know that sleep takes away from the other things I could be doing with my life, but ever since I have failed to get a "normal" nights' sleep in such a long time... I really frickin miss sleeping.  It's weird for me to crave sleep.  I don't mind this kind of sleep though, lately when I do fall asleep, it's been so hard that it feels like a dreamless sleep, which is a lot better than nightmares.

   It's also 8 days till my 4 year anniversary with my beloved.  These years have flown by.  It's like, one minute I'm a 25 year old Ice Queen who hates the entire male population and the next, I'm completely and totally in love and all the ice that surrounded my heart has melted away.  I know I suck sometimes and can be hard to live with, but hey, we make it work.  Our balance sometimes get,  a little off, but it goes back.  The only thing I know is that there is only one person in this world that truly was made for me.  It's rare to find that person who completes you and makes your heart feel whole, especially after it's been shattered and damaged by the curveballs that life threw and knocked it down with...